Stuff to Ponder...

The invisible and the non-existent look very much alike.
Delos B. McKown

What can be asserted without proof can be dismissed without proof.
Christopher Hitchen

The fact that a believer is happier than a skeptic is no more to the point than the fact that a drunken man is happier than a sober one.
George Bernard Shaw

A lie told often enough becomes the truth.
Vladimir Lenin

There's nothing so absurd that if you repeat it often enough, people will believe it.
William James


There is a comedian called George Carlin whom I really liked, sadly he is deceased. He is really funny and well respected. One act that stands out in particular is whereby he talks about "someone" who just can't seem to handle money....

Dissatisfaction...

we have been together for quite some time now...its been almost 6 years already...

i will never forget all the wonderful memories we shared, all the people we went out with...the many places we explored...and the many ups and downs we have been through together...

with all the time spent together...i really feel that i have fully understood your personality and i know how to handle you well...i know your what limitations are and how u will react/respond to my probings...which kinda makes me feel that all the time/effort/money spent on you is well worth it...

in return...you have taken good care of me...and you were always there whenever i needed u...it makes me feel that im a very fortunate man...

however...lately...im beginning to feel this sense of despair...this sense of inadequacy...partly due to my widening expectations...

there have been numerous instances whereby i felt that you were just not up to mark...unable to face some of the challenges that came your way...its like you are not longer able to satisfy my desires anymore...unable to perform when i require you to...

whenever im out on the streets and i see so many of my peers with companions who are superior to you in both ability and looks...i cant help but lust over them...looking them over and over again...i know its rude to stare...but i just cant resist the temptation...

but with all the uncertainty happening right now...all the market turmoil...inflation...unstable oil prices...increasing unemployment rate..increasing number of ERP gantries...is it really the right time to buy a new car???

A little more speed would be nice...but...

ever since i got my driving licence many many years ago...ive always wanted to own either a turbo-charged car or a convertible/cabriolet/watever fancy names they call it....

in the past few weeks...ive been to car showrooms juz to do some window shopping...and after much consideration...i think i prob wont be changing my car anytime soon...

owning a fully paid-up car vs going into debt again for the next 7 years or so...and making a rather huge loss by selling this car...well...the answer is obvious...

the next best alternative would be to spend ard 1 to 2k to add a bit more oomph to this car...juz to make driving a little bit more enjoyable on weekends...

i know this is totally impractical and unnecessary in singapore...but i kinda feel like rewarding myself a little...but the miser within is telling me not to be impulsive...

contradiction....dilemma....decisions....

was home early today due to an appt being postphoned...so i was relaxing by 8+pm...and im so not used to it...not used to having so much free time at nite...

Perfection!!

had my lasik done a few days ago...on the 8th...and i have to say that its nothing short of a life-changing experience...

dramatic as it may sound...im still trying to get used to being able to check the time on my wall-clock rather than having to reach for my handphone every morning when i wake up...

there are times when i almost reached for my glasses only to realise that...hey i dun need them anymore...

and it feels kinda weird walking around the house without glasses and still able to read the fine print on the numerous boxes lying on the floor...

i still cant believe that i actually went for lasik oready...after postponing it for so many years....

the benefits are intangible but i think this will be the best money i will ever spend...worth every single cent of the 3.6k....

Wonders of technology...

finally made an appt for my lasik consultation on next thur...so if everything goes well...it will be away in the thrash for my contact lens + spectacles...sort of like my birthday present for myself...

waited at least 4-5 years for this...back then i was still in sch so dint wana burden my parents...now that im earning my keeps...nothing shall hold me back anymore...

just keeping my fingers crossed that there will be no side effects...

I miss Trance...

my baby is having her final semester exams/presentations/projects now...very busy...and i can tell shes very very tired from all the late nights...hmm...think she deserves a good meal next week...

now that im sitting here with the earphones plugged into my ears...im reminiscing about the days when i was still in sch/army...no targets to hit...without a care in the world...and i could go clubbing wherever theres some good djs spinning in town...get myself high on alcohol...totally immerse myself in the music...

but for now...i know where my priorities lie...

juz gotten my Black card...with the Signature card coming my way in a matter of days...one thing about me is that i like to wear very "casual" whereever i go...even to town...so these these shld come in pretty handy...especially when theres so many snobbish sales assistants around...

next target...get my Golf/Alfa/Civic Type R/S2000...

have i ever mentioned before that i hate cab drivers? i just cant understand y they are such assholes...they change lanes like they own the roads...like its their right to make others brake hard in order for them to squeeze into the tiny gap available...yes i know its tiring to be driving the whole day...yes i know its their livelihood...but that does not give them the right to endanger other motorists...

THE HUMIDITY IS PISSING ME OFFFF!!!! IM FEELING SOOOO DAMN STICKY!!! I HATE IT!!!!!

no point taking a shower....i will be sticky again within 10mins................

Important note to self...

a combination of hard work and luck had given me a whiff of how success tastes like...and how wonderful a feeling it is to be at the top...

now the next thing to remember for a young punk like me would be to stay humble..always...reminding myself not to take it for granted that results like that are guaranteed every month...

although i may be earning slightly more than some of my friends...there are still many peers around who are better performers than myself....

Be humble...
Stay grounded...
Remember the values that i've stuck to all my life...