Bad Karma...
juz had a dream about her:
i wanted to drive the car out to find her but my parents had some magical powers that prevented me from doing so. think i pissed them off or they juz felt like being annoying.
in the end, i play some mind games and threatened them with something (forgot what it was) and off i went, they relented. sped down to some shopping centre to look for her. no idea why i went there. searched the whole place and the adjacent complex and the nearby shops for her but to no avail.
in the end, got a msg or call from her (forgot again) asking if i wana meet up for juice. (huh? y juice?) i was relieved and happy. so went to meet up with her at her place (but it looks different now).
we were talking about something....and i woke up. darn.
before that, i had another dream.
(she juz came online...and shes sick...hmm)
dreamt that i was making out with this girl i knew back from my army days. wasnt even close to her. the 1st time we made out we were interrupted by something. then we having been trying very hard to find somewhere "safe" to do it again but theres always people around.
went to my place. she was sleeping on the mattress. and i forgot the rest.
havent had a dream about her since we were still "together", although she would still be the first to appear on my mind the moment i wake up, occasionally. its taking way too long for me to get over the whole thing man. i've always been someone who can juz move on without much difficulty.
back in my sec sch days, i got together with this really hot girl from sch. shes from the netball team and many guys consider the prettiest in her batch. then my best fren admitted to me that he kinda liked her as well. in the end, she left me for him, coz i was kinda neglecting her. i can still remember that i wasnt in the least bit affected it. i can still remember the 3 of us walking to sch together when they told me about them, and i was fine with it. didnt feel any hurt or jealously or anger. we were still best frens, until we left sec sch, when he changed to another person completely.
juz read her blog. she went out with him again on sat. kinda surprised that it was only their second time meeting but she "was lookin forward to meet him". she said that the day started off really badly coz her keys somehow went down the rubbish chute together with the rubbish so her mood was affected already. a couple of incidents happened after she met him and she was convinced that it was "Evidence of bad karma! argh!!! "
the funny thing is, i was thinking about bad karma yest as well. haha. was reflecting back on my younger days and thought it was prob due to the jerk that i had been that lead to this. it was bad karma. u can imagine the shock that i got when i saw her blog title "Juz bad karma......."
im wondering what shes refering to when she mentioned bad karma. or who shes refering to. could it be.......??
anyway, can tell that she really cares about him, and she thinks about him quite a lot. prob more than she ever did for me. whatever.
============================================
i worked for 3 days last week, a total of 25 hrs! i cant believe it. i actually worked for 14 hrs on fri. i've never worked that long before in my whole life man.
im starting to dread work already. all started when they told me im being scheduled to work on the coming sat, 4 dec 2004. ITS ZOUKOUT! i've been looking forward to paul van dyk for so long and now i have to miss it! damn damn damn. i think i may ask around and see if theres anyone who can change shift with me. if not, maybe i will juz quit?? that thought did cross my mind before but i cannot be so weak, cannot give in to the devil, i must work. anyway im having my hols all the way till jan, if i stop now, i've got absolutely nothing to do till then. it will prob take me forever to get another job coz im lazy.
i have this really strong feeling that im gona regret it if i really miss zoukout. but theres a small part of me thats saying "u shouldnt go for zoukout. u'll prob have to spend close to a hundred bucks on that one nite. might as well go work and earn some cash. its not much, but at least its income."
i hate dilemmas. but then again, who doesnt.
============================================
have a few things to look forward to in dec.
serene will be coming back from aust really soon. 2 dec. duno y but im actually looking forward to seeing her again. havent seen her for so long already. i must say among all the classmates back in cj, im closest to her. hope it wont take too long before we can meet up. major catching up to do.
results will be out on 6 dec, 6pm. dont think i will fail anything. juz really curious to know how i did. think she will be afraid to check her results. she thinks that she wont do well, might even fail. sigh....praying for her.
prob be driving in to pasir gudang for go-karting!! one of my buds suggested it and thought its a good idea. anyway it will be on the track, so it should be a hundred times better than what genting has to offer. im so looking forward to it. SPEED AWAY!!
and of couse, after that we will be having seafood!! crabs, lobsters, prawns, sting rays, fish, u name it. but 1st, i've gota find a really really cheap place. danga bay is not good enough. i've heard of a few places, but i have no idea how to get there.
but im gona have to be the one driving, again. why is everyone so terrified of driving into msia? izzit really that scary?? i've driven in hundreds of times already, i've seen even BMs, Evos, Rexes, Lexus, Silvias, Camrys, Cefiros, and even Z350 drive in, so whats there to be afraid of?
contrary to what most pple feel, christmas is NOT one of the things im looking forward to. i've got nothing against xmas really, juz that i hate crowds. everywhere will be crowded. prob juz gona stay at home or hang out at someone's place. or chill out somewhere.
and stop playing all the christmas songs on radio! its not even december! cant imagine how the airwaves will sound like as xmas gets nearer. i've got nothing against xmas songs as well, juz that hearing them sort of irritated my last nite.
and i hate choosing gifts for people. i suck at it.
and i've this feeling that my job will really disrupt quite a bit of my plans. i want my freedom back!! and im starting to think that working at night may not be so fun after all. i cant hang out with my buds after that. since im a nite person, the best part of my day will be gone! im selling off the best part of the day, at 6.50 per hr! thats so cheap. i feel so cheap. i think i should change jobs. i dun like to serve pple. most of the crowd there are either ang mohs or chinese with slangs. ABCs. some are some really nice but will come across the occasional arrogant and im-fucking-rich-so-i-can-do-and-have-whatever-i-want kinda assholes. came across one that day.
heard that he gave a $1000 note as tips but colleague didnt accept that. so he juz bought a few bottles of wine/champagne and started spraying them at people. he was damn rude. but i wished i was the one he gave to note to. maybe i'll keep it? then i will quit the job on the spot. i wont even bother to come back to collect my miserable pay. hee...
but it opened my eyes a little. havent met those kinda really really filthy rich people till i worked here. on my first nite, the owner invited some of his guests over. its not unusual to see people smoking, juz that half of the people there were smoking CIGARS!! wth.
i wanted to drive the car out to find her but my parents had some magical powers that prevented me from doing so. think i pissed them off or they juz felt like being annoying.
in the end, i play some mind games and threatened them with something (forgot what it was) and off i went, they relented. sped down to some shopping centre to look for her. no idea why i went there. searched the whole place and the adjacent complex and the nearby shops for her but to no avail.
in the end, got a msg or call from her (forgot again) asking if i wana meet up for juice. (huh? y juice?) i was relieved and happy. so went to meet up with her at her place (but it looks different now).
we were talking about something....and i woke up. darn.
before that, i had another dream.
(she juz came online...and shes sick...hmm)
dreamt that i was making out with this girl i knew back from my army days. wasnt even close to her. the 1st time we made out we were interrupted by something. then we having been trying very hard to find somewhere "safe" to do it again but theres always people around.
went to my place. she was sleeping on the mattress. and i forgot the rest.
havent had a dream about her since we were still "together", although she would still be the first to appear on my mind the moment i wake up, occasionally. its taking way too long for me to get over the whole thing man. i've always been someone who can juz move on without much difficulty.
back in my sec sch days, i got together with this really hot girl from sch. shes from the netball team and many guys consider the prettiest in her batch. then my best fren admitted to me that he kinda liked her as well. in the end, she left me for him, coz i was kinda neglecting her. i can still remember that i wasnt in the least bit affected it. i can still remember the 3 of us walking to sch together when they told me about them, and i was fine with it. didnt feel any hurt or jealously or anger. we were still best frens, until we left sec sch, when he changed to another person completely.
juz read her blog. she went out with him again on sat. kinda surprised that it was only their second time meeting but she "was lookin forward to meet him". she said that the day started off really badly coz her keys somehow went down the rubbish chute together with the rubbish so her mood was affected already. a couple of incidents happened after she met him and she was convinced that it was "Evidence of bad karma! argh!!! "
the funny thing is, i was thinking about bad karma yest as well. haha. was reflecting back on my younger days and thought it was prob due to the jerk that i had been that lead to this. it was bad karma. u can imagine the shock that i got when i saw her blog title "Juz bad karma......."
im wondering what shes refering to when she mentioned bad karma. or who shes refering to. could it be.......??
anyway, can tell that she really cares about him, and she thinks about him quite a lot. prob more than she ever did for me. whatever.
============================================
i worked for 3 days last week, a total of 25 hrs! i cant believe it. i actually worked for 14 hrs on fri. i've never worked that long before in my whole life man.
im starting to dread work already. all started when they told me im being scheduled to work on the coming sat, 4 dec 2004. ITS ZOUKOUT! i've been looking forward to paul van dyk for so long and now i have to miss it! damn damn damn. i think i may ask around and see if theres anyone who can change shift with me. if not, maybe i will juz quit?? that thought did cross my mind before but i cannot be so weak, cannot give in to the devil, i must work. anyway im having my hols all the way till jan, if i stop now, i've got absolutely nothing to do till then. it will prob take me forever to get another job coz im lazy.
i have this really strong feeling that im gona regret it if i really miss zoukout. but theres a small part of me thats saying "u shouldnt go for zoukout. u'll prob have to spend close to a hundred bucks on that one nite. might as well go work and earn some cash. its not much, but at least its income."
i hate dilemmas. but then again, who doesnt.
============================================
have a few things to look forward to in dec.
serene will be coming back from aust really soon. 2 dec. duno y but im actually looking forward to seeing her again. havent seen her for so long already. i must say among all the classmates back in cj, im closest to her. hope it wont take too long before we can meet up. major catching up to do.
results will be out on 6 dec, 6pm. dont think i will fail anything. juz really curious to know how i did. think she will be afraid to check her results. she thinks that she wont do well, might even fail. sigh....praying for her.
prob be driving in to pasir gudang for go-karting!! one of my buds suggested it and thought its a good idea. anyway it will be on the track, so it should be a hundred times better than what genting has to offer. im so looking forward to it. SPEED AWAY!!
and of couse, after that we will be having seafood!! crabs, lobsters, prawns, sting rays, fish, u name it. but 1st, i've gota find a really really cheap place. danga bay is not good enough. i've heard of a few places, but i have no idea how to get there.
but im gona have to be the one driving, again. why is everyone so terrified of driving into msia? izzit really that scary?? i've driven in hundreds of times already, i've seen even BMs, Evos, Rexes, Lexus, Silvias, Camrys, Cefiros, and even Z350 drive in, so whats there to be afraid of?
contrary to what most pple feel, christmas is NOT one of the things im looking forward to. i've got nothing against xmas really, juz that i hate crowds. everywhere will be crowded. prob juz gona stay at home or hang out at someone's place. or chill out somewhere.
and stop playing all the christmas songs on radio! its not even december! cant imagine how the airwaves will sound like as xmas gets nearer. i've got nothing against xmas songs as well, juz that hearing them sort of irritated my last nite.
and i hate choosing gifts for people. i suck at it.
and i've this feeling that my job will really disrupt quite a bit of my plans. i want my freedom back!! and im starting to think that working at night may not be so fun after all. i cant hang out with my buds after that. since im a nite person, the best part of my day will be gone! im selling off the best part of the day, at 6.50 per hr! thats so cheap. i feel so cheap. i think i should change jobs. i dun like to serve pple. most of the crowd there are either ang mohs or chinese with slangs. ABCs. some are some really nice but will come across the occasional arrogant and im-fucking-rich-so-i-can-do-and-have-whatever-i-want kinda assholes. came across one that day.
heard that he gave a $1000 note as tips but colleague didnt accept that. so he juz bought a few bottles of wine/champagne and started spraying them at people. he was damn rude. but i wished i was the one he gave to note to. maybe i'll keep it? then i will quit the job on the spot. i wont even bother to come back to collect my miserable pay. hee...
but it opened my eyes a little. havent met those kinda really really filthy rich people till i worked here. on my first nite, the owner invited some of his guests over. its not unusual to see people smoking, juz that half of the people there were smoking CIGARS!! wth.
posted by tranzy at 11:05 AM
0 Comments:
Post a Comment
<< Home