"Desire,despair,desire,so many monsters"
think my dad kinda contradicted himself...told me that my exams are coming and i shld start studying already...yet he asked me to accompany him to jb to buy stuff...hmm...shld i go? actually wanted to start reading my law stuff today...hate to make decisions like this.
its one of my ex's birthday today. a really sweet girl who knows how to take care of her bf. we still keep in contact once in a longwhile...missed her bday party last year, not bcoz i couldnt make it, but bcoz i din feel like going...socialising...n i think she wasnt too pleased with that...and i've been regretting that decision ever since. thats why i made it a point to msg her happy bday at the stroke of 12 this year. the reply i got was juz a "thanks!". such a cold reply...
a fren of mine had her advance bday celebration on last sat. one of my frens asked me to pick him up at bedok on my way there. fine, no prob. he gave me the impression and made me think that he knew the way there from bedok. i think he even said he knew how to get there. thats why i dint check the map for directions from bedok coz i was busy before that. but after i met him, he only knew half the way...and we ended up going a big round before reaching. its a small insignificant incident but its one of the things that some drivers hate. getting lost. bad directions. sudden instruction to turn.
anyway...all was soon forgotten and the chalet was quite interesting. bday girl gota french the bf for a while...dint eat much at the chalet though...dint have dinner too...
went bugis for drinking session after that. beer. mmm...i like. many jugs of beer. many frens present. couch seats. nice. showing england vs n. ireland as well. brilliant. the usual took place...drinking games...sabo-ing...people pretending to drink...bla bla bla...
its probably due to the empty stomach...i dont remember drinking that much...but i think i was quite close to being drunk and puking. and again...thank goodness there were no road blocks. im really pushing my luck...i always push my luck...in everything i do...
and yest at 10+ in the morning...a fren i got to know recently called and asked me to play soccer for his team coz he was short of players. its always difficult for me to resist the lure of the ball so i agreed. that was my 1st time playing field soccer since last june i think...a whole 9 months. and of course i sucked...at least i dint play to wat i knew i was capable of. my lack of fitness was apparant...and wasnt helped when they asked me to play in unfamiliar positions. anyway...we lost by one goal and they are going to have a re-match. im kinda hoping that they will ask me down for the re-match...and will put me in my usual position. then i'll show them. its a matter of pride and ego. i was wearing my cjc soccer team jersey...so i kinda wana redeem myself. cannot let others think that cj players' standards are so low.
which brings to my mind....some people make too big a deal about players from the sch team. granted, we are supposed to be better than average, but we are not that good, or else we will be in the combined schs of even national age-group teams. even some of the people who "supposedly" play for clubs are not really good.
got asked by frens wat kinda gf im looking for and wat are the things i would do for her. come to think of it...i think its not really accurate to ask someone whos single for that. theres a reason for the saying "love is blind". capable of making people do irrational stuff and make radical changes in their life...at least before love becomes a habit...then the story might change a little...
was watching tv yest when i saw a line on the subtitles...goes something like "no desires make a man carefree". cant remember the exact words but the meaning is there. i can interpret it as less desires gives less troubles/worries. if only i can forgo those desires....
its one of my ex's birthday today. a really sweet girl who knows how to take care of her bf. we still keep in contact once in a longwhile...missed her bday party last year, not bcoz i couldnt make it, but bcoz i din feel like going...socialising...n i think she wasnt too pleased with that...and i've been regretting that decision ever since. thats why i made it a point to msg her happy bday at the stroke of 12 this year. the reply i got was juz a "thanks!". such a cold reply...
a fren of mine had her advance bday celebration on last sat. one of my frens asked me to pick him up at bedok on my way there. fine, no prob. he gave me the impression and made me think that he knew the way there from bedok. i think he even said he knew how to get there. thats why i dint check the map for directions from bedok coz i was busy before that. but after i met him, he only knew half the way...and we ended up going a big round before reaching. its a small insignificant incident but its one of the things that some drivers hate. getting lost. bad directions. sudden instruction to turn.
anyway...all was soon forgotten and the chalet was quite interesting. bday girl gota french the bf for a while...dint eat much at the chalet though...dint have dinner too...
went bugis for drinking session after that. beer. mmm...i like. many jugs of beer. many frens present. couch seats. nice. showing england vs n. ireland as well. brilliant. the usual took place...drinking games...sabo-ing...people pretending to drink...bla bla bla...
its probably due to the empty stomach...i dont remember drinking that much...but i think i was quite close to being drunk and puking. and again...thank goodness there were no road blocks. im really pushing my luck...i always push my luck...in everything i do...
and yest at 10+ in the morning...a fren i got to know recently called and asked me to play soccer for his team coz he was short of players. its always difficult for me to resist the lure of the ball so i agreed. that was my 1st time playing field soccer since last june i think...a whole 9 months. and of course i sucked...at least i dint play to wat i knew i was capable of. my lack of fitness was apparant...and wasnt helped when they asked me to play in unfamiliar positions. anyway...we lost by one goal and they are going to have a re-match. im kinda hoping that they will ask me down for the re-match...and will put me in my usual position. then i'll show them. its a matter of pride and ego. i was wearing my cjc soccer team jersey...so i kinda wana redeem myself. cannot let others think that cj players' standards are so low.
which brings to my mind....some people make too big a deal about players from the sch team. granted, we are supposed to be better than average, but we are not that good, or else we will be in the combined schs of even national age-group teams. even some of the people who "supposedly" play for clubs are not really good.
got asked by frens wat kinda gf im looking for and wat are the things i would do for her. come to think of it...i think its not really accurate to ask someone whos single for that. theres a reason for the saying "love is blind". capable of making people do irrational stuff and make radical changes in their life...at least before love becomes a habit...then the story might change a little...
was watching tv yest when i saw a line on the subtitles...goes something like "no desires make a man carefree". cant remember the exact words but the meaning is there. i can interpret it as less desires gives less troubles/worries. if only i can forgo those desires....
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