Fear is scary...

sometimes when u see ur frens doing so well...or at least much better than u are...u will kinda be caught in the middle...not knowing whether to hope that they fail or sincerely wish them all the best...

i think it stems from the fear of seeing them become more successful than u are...but yet since they are ur good frens...u feel morally obligated to be truly happy for them n hope they do well...

its not like u havent tried...but juz that they have more drive, motivation and determination to try much much harder...

so in the end...rather than sitting down WITH them envying or talking about those successful/rich pple and their fancy cars...they have suddenly become one of them...n u will find urself sitting all alone...